this one.

i dont really know what i want to call this one. but all i know is that i really want to get things off my chest and going to the workout gym isnt really helping me at all considering i cant workout for a while. it sucks. i was dehydrated..well at least that is what the doctors said. but all i know is that it wasnt a great experience and i am still recovering from it as we speak.

soo i met this guy. but he reminds me alot of my ex. and that right there is something crucial . i dont want to run into another relationship like the one that i had with brandon because it hurt me emotionally && physically. but as for now, im really just trying to take my life, a baby step at a time.

i dont want to go to fast and end up making any more mistakes. i know what i want to do in life. i know what i want to be. and right now i am doing a damn good job of getting to where i want to .
one of these days ima reach my destination && live great.

thats how everyone should be.


(: always.

caitlin

its been a while

yeah...so it has pretty much been a few months since i actually sat here and typed all of my feelings out to blogspot or whatever.
soo here it goes..

last time i blogged, i was going through alot with the one guy that i used to be friends with but most people already know what happened so im not going to bother wasting my time on talking about it when the people in the story arent even worth mentioning.

so now im starting a new life, i have an amazing bestfriend && twin (denzel adams) that kid means the world to me <3
but anyways,

everything is actually going great, im meeting new people like troya wright && marley avery
idk what i would do without those two...honestly, the little things they do make me happy

im looking forward to going back to virginia because i miss everybody up there but mostly my pres. willie :)

it has been forever since ive seen him, i need my dosage.

but anywho.

i am pretty much better than ever. life is going great. no injuries or sicknesses

its freakin lovely<3

ive been through a shit load.

my life was and still is amazing.
i am realizing who my real friends are.
[twin, marley, willie, montrell, matt, and ashley]
they are always there for me and always have been.
i lost one friend. but he needed to go anyway,
he screwed up our friendship with the girl he is dating but its okay.
im over it.
its his loss of a great friendship.
so anyways.
i've realized that i dont need a boyfriend to complete me.
i have everything that i already need.
and one of them definitely aint stress.
&& not to mention last night which was most likely the worst night .
although it actually wasnt the first time.
no girl should go through what ive been through in my life.
its crazyy that guys can go and react like that.
just for defending my twin.
&& that guy who used to be my bestfriend.
but ive replaced those 2.
blogging has really made me feel free.
but i really love santo(twinzo) && marley for being there for me.

i couldnt really ask for anything else or for anything better.
♥

dope joe

Denzel "twin" Adams::

♥

 your up here because i love you to death. we met a while ago. and ever since then i thank God everyday for letting me have somebody as great as you in my life, your somebody and something i wouldnt want to live without. your my twin, and you always will be. even when we have our moments. [even when i have a bad feeling about the people you choose to talk to].but there is much love because your the greatest. Shroomland, is still in business :)

life so far

prom::

thats coming soon.

work::

always there.

friends && bestfriends::

coming and leaving 

1 by 1

boyfriend::

ha? are you kidding me? like 3? 

wont be having one anytime soon.

life::

dont know about all of it yet. yeah im ready for it and i know what i want, but getting those simple little things that i want, are harder than you think. im not complaining or asking for mercy, im just wishing that it could lighten up and tell me what i am doing wrong.

its 2009, but i still dont get what im losing thats mine.

where is the fun that is everybody else is talking about? i see none.

none at all.

its confusing.yet still beautiful.